College in a Suitcase

Can I just say sometimes you find something you love. And really, I could use one of these – they are very awesome and I don’t currently have a laptop sleeve. However, I’m saving my money for my trip to South Korea.

Also I thought I would share with you. The website is called Barry’s Farm. They do laptop sleeves, iPhone sleeves, and more. And they have great designs too!

Barry’s Farm is run by a couple, Barry and Kate, and they use American apparel! Their site is full of humor and is sure for a life. For instance where it says your cart is empty, underneath it says it is depressed, bringing life even to this generally overlooked feature. They also ship to a bunch of countries in the world (but not Spain because all their shipping kept getting lost. Sorry to any readers from Spain). I also love that these two have personalities, professing a love of dolphins and unicorns and a desire to meet Abe Lincoln (who I just watched a little bit of a show about on the History Channel).

By far my favorite thing of theirs is this Hedgehog Sleeve: http://barrysfarm.net/product/hedge-hog-laptop-sleeve So cute!

Check out their website here: http://barrysfarm.net/

Miss Lissy

Disclaimer: I was not contacted or compensated by Barry’s Farm to put on this review. I just think they’re cool

All right, so I know it’s not Christmas, but with graduations approaching, sometimes you find things that you just can’t wrap. Actually, I have a hard time wrapping almost anything.

I hope you enjoy.

Miss Lissy

Okay, I’ll admit it – sometimes I look at things and I want them but I would never, ever get them for myself. But I want to share with you guys the pretty things that I find.

Also, as a side note, I just want you to know that watching Bridezillas makes me feel tons better about myself and how I’m planning my wedding. Is that awful?

So today’s Saturday Splurge is this:
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It’s a stainless steel water bottle and it says (in case you can’t read it) “I’m fairly certain that given a cape and a nice tiara I could save the world.” I love it – it makes me laugh. Unfortunately, it comes to $21.95. It can be purchased here.

What do you think of this water bottle? Would you spend the money on it? Does it make you laugh or is it too cutesy?

Miss Lissy

Hello everyone,
I’m gonna be trying a new format, so we’ll see how it goes. I’m gonna try to post every day again as well. We’ll see how well that goes. I’m trying – that’s what counts right?

“Would you be willing to eat a bowl of live crickets for $40,000?”

No. There are not many things you could get me to eat for money. I am incredibly careful about what I put in my mouth – germs are everywhere. I wouldn’t eat a bowl of live or dead crickets, not for that amount – not for any amount.

Maybe I would lettuce though.

Miss Lissy

I’m taking a small break from my paper to write this blog post in hopes that it will make me feel better or at least give me a space to get my feelings out.

My friend Chris once renamed me the girl who struggles and I think it’s pretty accurate. I know I’m struggling a lot right now. I feel like I am failing in every role I play – like I’m not doing enough, like I’m not good enough. Today I didn’t turn in an assignment in my class. Sometimes I’ve had to scrape by just before class to get my assignments done, but I have always gotten them done. Today I didn’t. It was the only time this semester other than right after Jason died and I went to his funeral.

And I just feel like such a failure today. It’s hard because there’s a part of me that knows I’m not a failure but right now the part of me that feels like a failure is so much stronger. I don’t know what to do – I don’t know how this can be helped. I have felt like crying at so many points this day and even when I do feel better, it seems only temporary and then I’m feeling down again.

I’m not usually been this pessimistic but things have just seemed sort of downhill for me ever since spring break. I feel like I’m always trying to get things done on time and that I don’t have time for what I need to do. But I’m trying, I really am. But trying doesn’t count in college and close only counts in horseshoes and hand grenades.

I hope I make it through the end of the semester,

Miss Lissy

Update

Posted on: May 3, 2010

So in case you are still reading, I just wanted to update you further from yesterday.

Today I went in to get my vaccines for my trip to Korea. I got my first one and then I passed out and had a small seizure (10 seconds). They’re not sure if it was just a seizure or a fainting spell but Sallie (the nurse) thinks it was probably a seizure.

It was incredibly scary and with everything else that is going on (see previous post) it just left me incredibly emotionally drained.

This is hard. I’m praying to make it through this week.

Miss Lissy

I’m blogging about this because I need an outlet. I know I’ve been unfaithful at blogging, but I’ve been going through a lot. And I apologize for only being able to talk about this in vague terms but I can only tell so much before it’s ready to become public knowledge.

I’m in the process of making a really big decision – a decision that at this point is already made in my mind and is now only awaiting the green light from others. And every time I think we have checked the last detail, crossed the last t, we find out there is more to be done. It’s so frustrating.

And I feel like I’m going through it alone. No, I know I’m not going through it alone – I have a wonderful, wonderful fiancee who is going through this with me, but I’m not going to lie, him being far away takes its toll on me. I’d like to say that it doesn’t, but it’s hard when half of you is in a different place. All the tears shed you shed alone. All the anxious moments you go alone. And yes, you know they are there on the other end, but it’s not as good as a real human touch, as a hug would be.

And I really hate to complain about this but it has been so tough lately. To recap, I am in the process of making this major life decision, while also making other major life decisions. Last week I quit two of my jobs. And I decided I’m moving out of the residence hall. It is overwhelmingly scary at points. What if I can’t find a job? What if I fail at living on my own? What if I drop out of school because I’m too lazy to take the bus or bike to school? There are so many what ifs I’m struggling with. And these are only the ones that are public, only the ones I can tell you about.

In short, I don’t know why I’m writing this blog post. I know that life is hard and life isn’t fair and I never expect it to be. Sometimes though, it just overwhelms you, it just feels like too much.

I’m burnt out at 19. I’m balancing multiple jobs, 18 credits, a long distance relationship and I care too much about people. I’m so burnt out right now and yet I push on. Because this isn’t about me; this is about me living out other people’s dreams for me. Yes, I’m gifted, yes I’m smart, yes I’m excelling in college – but is it where I want to be? Not necessarily – it is my dad’s dream for me, not my dream for me and I’m really struggling with that right now.

I can’t drop out because I know it’s good for me in the long run, but it’s so hard. I just want to move onto the dreams I want for myself. I was born in the wrong era, in the wrong time, where women are expected to do everything and be everything.

And I can’t, I’m sorry.

I should go now before this just gets rambling. I’m already crying and I’ve a four page paper to finish for tomorrow.

Miss Lissy